Category: Soul (Blessings, Miracles, Prayer, Spiritual Growth)

Crossing the Red Sea

14 Then the Lord said to Moses, ² “Tell the Israelites to turn back and camp in front of Pi Hahiroth, between Migdol and the Red Sea, near Baal Zephon. ³ The king will think that the Israelites are wandering around in the country and are closed in by the desert. ⁴ I will make him stubborn, and he will pursue you, and my victory over the king and his army will bring me honor. Then the Egyptians will know that I am the Lord.” The Israelites did as they were told.

⁵ When the king of Egypt was told that the people had escaped, he and his officials changed their minds and said, “What have we done? We have let the Israelites escape, and we have lost them as our slaves!” ⁶ The king got his war chariot and his army ready. ⁷ He set out with all his chariots, including the six hundred finest, commanded by their officers. ⁸ The Lord made the king stubborn, and he pursued the Israelites, who were leaving triumphantly.^[a]9 The Egyptian army, with all the horses, chariots, and drivers, pursued them and caught up with them where they were camped by the Red Sea near Pi Hahiroth and Baal Zephon.

¹⁰ When the Israelites saw the king and his army marching against them, they were terrified and cried out to the Lord for help. ¹¹ They said to Moses, “Weren’t there any graves in Egypt? Did you have to bring us out here in the desert to die? Look what you have done by bringing us out of Egypt! ¹² Didn’t we tell you before we left that this would happen? We told you to leave us alone and let us go on being slaves of the Egyptians. It would be better to be slaves there than to die here in the desert.”

¹³ Moses answered, “Don’t be afraid! Stand your ground, and you will see what the Lord will do to save you today; you will never see these Egyptians again. ¹⁴ The Lord will fight for you, and all you have to do is keep still.”

¹⁵ The Lord said to Moses, “Why are you crying out for help? Tell the people to move forward. ¹⁶ Lift up your walking stick and hold it out over the sea. The water will divide, and the Israelites will be able to walk through the sea on dry ground. ¹⁷ I will make the Egyptians so stubborn that they will go in after them, and I will gain honor by my victory over the king, his army, his chariots, and his drivers. ¹⁸ When I defeat them, the Egyptians will know that I am the Lord.”

¹⁹ The angel of God, who had been in front of the army of Israel, moved and went to the rear. The pillar of cloud also moved until it was ²⁰ between the Egyptians and the Israelites. The cloud made it dark for the Egyptians, but gave light to the people of Israel,^[b] and so the armies could not come near each other all night.

²¹ Moses held out his hand over the sea, and the Lord drove the sea back with a strong east wind. It blew all night and turned the sea into dry land. The water was divided, ²² and the Israelites went through the sea on dry ground, with walls of water on both sides. ²³ The Egyptians pursued them and went after them into the sea with all their horses, chariots, and drivers. ²⁴ Just before dawn the Lord looked down from the pillar of fire and cloud at the Egyptian army and threw them into a panic. ²⁵ He made the wheels of their chariots get stuck, so that they moved with great difficulty. The Egyptians said, “The Lord is fighting for the Israelites against us. Let’s get out of here!”

²⁶ The Lord said to Moses, “Hold out your hand over the sea, and the water will come back over the Egyptians and their chariots and drivers.” ²⁷ So Moses held out his hand over the sea, and at daybreak the water returned to its normal level.

The Egyptians tried to escape from the water, but the Lord threw them into the sea. ²⁸ The water returned and covered the chariots, the drivers, and all the Egyptian army that had followed the Israelites into the sea; not one of them was left. ²⁹ But the Israelites walked through the sea on dry ground, with walls of water on both sides.

³⁰ On that day the Lord saved the people of Israel from the Egyptians, and the Israelites saw them lying dead on the seashore. ³¹ When the Israelites saw the great power with which the Lord had defeated the Egyptians, they stood in awe of the Lord; and they had faith in the Lord and in his servant Moses.

When I asked my husband last week if he thought Moses ever questioned where God was leading him as he faced the Red Sea with the Egyptians got on his heals…. he said he didn’t know. I know he thinks I’m crazy, but so far, he’s willing to stay with me. 😂. I’ve been thinking a lot about Moses… mostly because the way in which God provided a way for them was so miraculous that it could have happened no other way than through God.

Common in Mark Batterson’s writing is the notion that God often shows up in a BIG way when we allow ourselves to be put in a place where there is literally NO way we can do something ourselves. As a fairly strong willed and capable woman, I find myself relying on my own skills often. I am, however, in present circumstances where I am absolutely powerless to do or change anything.

Not only with regard to my business partner’s health and well-being, but with regard to the business we’ve started (the business I feel absolutely was directed by God). I know absolutely nothing about healthcare with regard to His condition, nor how to help him. Never have I ever felt so helpless in my whole life. I can literally do nothin BUT pray. In the business, there are some things in trying to do to build clientele but and that’s going well… but facing a potential need to buy my partner’s half of the business due to his health issues puts everything we’ve started in jeopardy. I miss him being part of the business, someone to bounce ideas off of who will give me honest feedback and push back where needed. I can literally do nothing but pray.. good thing that’s my word of the year!

Trusting He will work all things together for good because I love Him

SB

I will look up

Our students led worship at our church today. One of the songs they picked is this one. As I listen to it and read the lyrics, I realize it speaks directly to me in my present circumstances. I offer this prayer to Him:

All the worries of this world
I will lay them at Your feet
Surrender every anxious thought
For perfect peace, Your perfect peace

Lord, there are so many worries in the world… financial worries, health worries, relational worries, and more. The worries range from large scale worries that affect countries and governments to personal worries that affect each one of us. Anxiety runs rampant in a world devoid of Your peace. Help me to lay all of these worries at your feet, completely surrendering them to Your will. You know just what we need, Lord. Fill is with Your peace… the peace that passes understanding..

All the loved ones I hold dear
All my hopes and dreams and all my fears
I will choose to trust Your name
In everything, with everything

Lord, I think about those in my circle. I know some of their needs but not all. You know them all. You also know our hopes and dreams… and have given us dreams to pursue. I CHOOSE to trust that every good and perfect gift comes from You. I CHOOSE to trust You with every single thing in my life… my loved ones, my dreams, my finances, my relationships, my health and all of those things for all those in my circle. Everything is Yours.

I will look up for there is none above You
I will bow down to tell You that I need You
Jesus Lord of all, Jesus Lord of all

There is literally no one above God… I will stare in His direction, humbly bowing to acknowledge that I am completely unable to do these things on my own… I need His love and forgiveness… I need His grace, I need His wisdom… I need His power. I make Him Lord of my life…. seeking Him first above all else in my life.

I will take You at Your word
For Jesus, You have taken hold of me

All my life is in Your hands
You are my strength, You are my strength

Gods Word is full of promise, full of wisdom that He’s given us to learn to trust Him. Jesus has taken ahold of my life. I’ve been bought with a price, and give all I am an all I have to Him. My life is in His hands and I am completely weak apart from Him. May I not rely on my own strength and knowledge to do anything but acknowledge I am nothing apart from Him.

I will look up for there is none above You
I will bow down to tell You that I need You
Jesus Lord of all

I will look back and see that You are faithful
I look ahead believing You are able
Jesus Lord of all, Jesus Lord of allThe Lord, the Lord of all

I can look back over my life, Lord, and see where You have provided, even when I wasn’t being obedient to You. For some reason, You’ve called me to this place right now, and put certain people and circumstances in my life to bless and be blessed by. Because I know You’ve provided for me in the past, I know You are able to bring me through present circumstances… You alone are able.

Lord, You are the perfect Healer. You alone understand medically what’s happening in the bodies of those close to me who are struggling. You alone can heal. I ask You to put my cares on You. Bring healing to those who need it, to relationships that are broken, to lives that need rebuilt.

I will look up for there is none above You
I will bow down to tell You that I need You
Jesus Lord of all

I will look back and see that You are faithful
I’ll look ahead believing You are able
Jesus Lord of all, You’re Jesus Lord of all
Our God is Jesus Lord of all, You’re Jesus Lord of all

Lord, hear me as I pray. All I am is Yours. I wait expecting You to show up in a powerful way so that others may see Your glory. In You I rest…

Amen

Mark Batterson has become one of my very favorite author’s.  Since reading his book, “In a Pit with a Lion on a Snowy Day”, I was hooked on his motivation and his message – to pursue our God-given dreams, especially if they terrify us.  One of his mantra’s is to allow God the opportunity to show up in our lives in spectacular ways…  and having a close enough relationship to Him that we have faith that He will.

Over the past four months, situations have unfolded in my life to put me in a situation which I can not control at all. I am completely out of my element to offer any medical advice to those caring for Rob right now…. and even more out of my element to personally understand and help him address his addiction, if he’s given the chance through physical healing in his present circumstances. I am completely out of my element facing financial decisions with regard to our studio, should his present circumstances continue.

I asked my husband last night if he thought those following Moses, as he led the Israelites out of Egypt, ever doubted his leadership… and whether Moses himself ever doubted God’s calling, especially as they approached the Red Sea with soldiers fast on their heels. I wondered if, when Moses realized that God was literally parting the sea to make a way for them to cross, he may have thought to himself, “holy crap! Who would have ever guessed that God would answer our prayers like this!”

In my humanness, I am admittedly terrified. I am so very grateful for the relationship that I have with Jesus, though, that tells me that He will make a way for His will to be done.

I’m writing honestly, from my gut. I will tell you that I have moments of terror amidst moments of faith. I can’t see how God will provide… and yet I’m confident He will. After all, what He’s done in my life and the lives of those around me in the past fourteen months has been amazing. He has already provided so much more than I could have ever imagined…..

I will look up for there is none above you.

I look ahead believing You are able.

Jesus, I love you and am trusting You with all my heart! ❤️

Blessings,

SB

³⁶ Then Gideon said to God, “If You will deliver Israel ^[a]through me, as You have spoken, ³⁷ behold, I will put a fleece of wool on the threshing floor. If there is dew on the fleece only, and it is dry on all the ground, then I will know that You will deliver Israel ^[b]through me, as You have spoken.” ³⁸ And it was so. When he arose early the next morning and squeezed the fleece, he drained the dew from the fleece, a bowl full of water. ³⁹ Then Gideon said to God, “Do not let Your anger burn against me that I may speak once more; please let me make a test once more with the fleece, let it now be dry only on the fleece, and let there be dew on all the ground.”⁴⁰ God did so that night; for it was dry only on the fleece, and dew was on all the ground.

Over the past decade or so, as I’ve worked to get my life really right with God, Ive asked Him to show me signs that I’m on the “right” path… signs that I’m doing what He wants me to.

The first time I recall asking was when I realized that perhaps teaching music was part of God’s plan for my studio/coffee shop idea, which I felt was an idea planted by God. Oddly enough, as i periodically sketched out ideas about a “coffee shop”, I was focused on coffee and music venue, but had not really considered lessons. I began teaching lessons as a side gig in 2012 when my husband was hurt and off work for an extended period of time. It was a way for us to make enough extra money to pay for our own kids’ music lessons. I had been teaching a couple students just on Monday nights when I had the aha moment that perhaps this was part of the plan all along. I prayed and asked God that, if it was indeed part of His plan, that He would provide students.

Within a relatively short period of time, my students brought referrals to me and my home studio exploded into 27 students. At first, I was only teaching on Mondays… then I said I’d open up Tuesdays… and now I’m literally teaching 5 days a week in addition to my full time job .

I always viewed asking God for a sign as a sign of weak faith until my pastor friend showed me this passage.

Over the past four months, as I look back at this baby business trying to get off the ground, facing Rob’s health issues and a host of relationships challenges, I find myself asking for signs once again. I can almost not count the number of different types of signs I believe I’ve received this week alone… from lesson referrals, to chance meetings with artists, and a somewhat random connection to a couple of old friends of Robs, with whom I will have lunch today.

I am confident of this… that He is in control and using me for a purpose that I cannot fully comprehend… to reach people for Him. I pray that He will find me faithful to His purpose.

I know how I would like all of this to turn out… and I’ve made my request known to Him. My desire is that God would heal Robs body and mind and use him to tell his story to reach people who need to know the transforming power of Jesus. But I know that He has a more Divine purpose, and I am at complete peace that, even if He doesn’t answer my prayer the way I want Him to, that He will use our present circumstances to bring glory to His name.

I am waiting expectantly to see Him shine!

Be blessed today, my friends

SB

My Bible study yesterday….

James 1-2

1:1 James, a servant [1] of God and of the Lord Jesus Christ,

Greeting

To the twelve tribes in the Dispersion:

Greetings.

Testing of Your Faith

2 Count it all joy, my brothers, [2] when you meet trials of various kinds, 3 for you know that the testing of your faith produces steadfastness. 4 And let steadfastness have its full effect, that you may be perfect and complete, lacking in nothing.

5 If any of you lacks wisdom, let him ask God, who gives generously to all without reproach, and it will be given him. 6 But let him ask in faith, with no doubting, for the one who doubts is like a wave of the sea that is driven and tossed by the wind. 7 For that person must not suppose that he will receive anything from the Lord; 8 he is a double-minded man, unstable in all his ways.

9 Let the lowly brother boast in his exaltation, 10 and the rich in his humiliation, because like a flower of the grass [3] he will pass away. 11 For the sun rises with its scorching heat and withers the grass; its flower falls, and its beauty perishes. So also will the rich man fade away in the midst of his pursuits.

12 Blessed is the man who remains steadfast under trial, for when he has stood the test he will receive the crown of life, which God has promised to those who love him. 13 Let no one say when he is tempted, “I am being tempted by God,” for God cannot be tempted with evil, and he himself tempts no one. 14 But each person is tempted when he is lured and enticed by his own desire. 15 Then desire when it has conceived gives birth to sin, and sin when it is fully grown brings forth death.

16 Do not be deceived, my beloved brothers. 17 Every good gift and every perfect gift is from above, coming down from the Father of lights with whom there is no variation or shadow due to change. [4] 18 Of his own will he brought us forth by the word of truth, that we should be a kind of firstfruits of his creatures.

God is awesome… to give me this passage as I face trials… I am trusting him, not only with regard to my friend Rob’s health, but with the studio that He very clearly organized. God is good. All the time.

Be blessed

SB

Two days ago, I was processing my emotional state in present circumstances . I knew in my head that I had to surrender my feelings to God but I was having a hard time. I prayed and asked God to help me to surrender my full trust to Him

Over the course of the morning, I felt a release of my emotions, and a calm peace came over me. I recognized the feeling from a time, many years ago, when I was able to finally realease my present circumstances over to God and truly say (and believe!) “not MY will, Lord, but YOURS”.

My will is that God would either heal Rob instantly or take him home. They seem like the only choices…. but I am reminded that Gods ways are not our ways.

Sometimes I think God’s simply waiting for US to be ready for His answer. He’s waiting for us to align our hearts with His. That’s when He can really use us and that’s when he can really bless us

I’m reminded of the first time I experienced this. In my early twenties, working my first “real” job out of college, I decided I hated it. Long story, but I didn’t like the boss or the work or the people I worked with. As a female with a degree in electrical engineering, I assumed it would be easy to find a job. After three or four months, I still hadn’t and was getting frustrated. I remember vividly going to lunch by myself on a Monday, wrestling with God over why He wouldn’t answer my prayer, when I suddenly thought He might have a reason for me to stay… perhaps someone in the company needed to meet Him and I’d be the conduit. In a moment of humbleness, I surrendered my will to His and accepted, with the peace that comes from full surrender, whatever He has planned. Exactly four days later, I was on a sales call with a small company, meeting with the director of operations, who mentioned they were looking to hire engineers. I gave him my resume, he interviewed me right there, and offered me a job on the spot. I went to work the next day to give my two weeks notice and my boss said, “nope. You’re done today”. I started my new job exactly one week after I had fully surrendered my will to His.

As I sat there thinking about the past 14 months, knowing with all my heart that the studio and my business partner were all very clearly orchestrated by God, I give full release to Him for what happens in the future. My prayer is that He will use our present circumstances to reach people who desperately need Him.

In that experience, I realized that what God wanted, more than anything, was for me to rely on Him. When I was able to humble myself, and accept His will, He blessed me.

Yesterday, I got an email from an engineering manager in the company where I work. This man, who I believe is a Christian, worked along side Rob for years and reached out to see if I knew how he was doing. Steve and I had talked in the fall and I learned his wife is battling cancer, too. Steve told me that he and Nick (who also happens to be Robs college roommate and works in the same company) were concerned for Rob.

I filled them in very high level details and said Rob could certainly use their prayers and support. I told them I’d share more but didn’t want it in writing. We’re having lunch together tomorrow. I believe Nick also knows Jesus, but I don’t know how deep either of their faith is. I am praying for each of them, for their families, for their struggles and for their faith. I am trusting that God is using this circumstances to draw us all closer to Him

I’m thankful for Robs friends, knowing that if he survives, he’s going to need a support network bigger than me.

I’m thankful for a God with whom I can grow and learn, who loves me unconditionally.

In Him I pray that His will be done, with Rob, with the studio, with my life, and the lives of others who are watching this unfold.

Be blessed today, my friends,

I will look up

I will look back and see that You are faithful
I look ahead believing You are able
Jesus Lord of all, Jesus Lord of all

SB

A few weeks ago I met with an artist, a dear friend of mine, who is a phenomenal artist with whom I’m planning an art show for spring. I was filling him in on some of how the studio came to be, as well as current issues.

Later that evening he sent me a text that simply read, “God is good. Stare in His direction”

I think sometimes we get worked up over present circumstances (I know I do) and try to figure out what we need to do when all God wants is for us to trust that He’s got it.

I had a bit of emotional and spiritual release yesterday, relinquishing control of my thoughts and concerns about Rob, the studio, and others to God the Father. I am trusting that He’s got this… and He’s got me..

New International Version
being confident of this, that he who began a good work in you will carry it on to completion until the day of Christ Jesus.

The release is freeing. And healing. And just what I need to move my thoughts forward.

Henry Davis Thoreau said, “God confidently in the direction of your dreams”, which is an awesome quote. I would paraphrase slight to say, “Go confidently in the direction He has called you”.

In my present circumstances, there is still much uncertainty. However, I AM certain that He’s called me to open this studio in this place… and I am going to stare in His direction, going confidently in the direction He’s called me, trusting that He will equip me to do what He’s called and provide resources to accomplish all He wants.

Be blessed today, my friends

SB.

As I drove from my office to my studio yesterday, the first song I heard was one called “the story isn’t over”. It’s ironic, since Rob and I often talked about the story of our friendship isn’t over…. even when I thought it was for more than 10 years.

When we first talked last year about partnering to buy the building that is now the studio I dreamed of, I told him that I felt like Gods purpose in that place was bigger than me, bigger than him, bigger than both of us together. I felt like God chose that particular place for some reason. We talked about the healing and forgiveness that took place in our friendship, the restoration that God brought to broken things in both of our lives… and how He wants to do that for all of us. Rob talked about the path of destruction he’s left behind him due to bad decisions, and consequences of those decisions that brought pain.

We looked forward to the story that God is writing through our lives, both individually and through the studio. He allowed me to dream endless possibilities and “we could do…”s. We talked about the fact that he challenged me and I challenged him, and we both respected each other enough to let the other share their opinions openly, without fear of condemnation or judgement. We’d encourage one another to dream and challenge one another to try new things, new perspectives. We made perfect business partners, in my opinion. Many people spend a lifetime never having a friend like that. I’ve never truly felt unconditional love for someone before, but God has given me a glimpse of His unconditional love for us. Maybe because I am far enough removed from the decisions of Robs past, I am able to acknowledge them without judgment, and gently encourage him to blaze a new path in Gods goodness. I feel incredibly blessed to have had the opportunity to learn a small piece of what Gods love is all about, and am now beginning to apply what I’ve learned to other relationships in my life.

When I left the studio, I called the hospital where Rob is to see if he’d been moved to the rehabilitation center they talked about moving to… they hadn’t moved him yet, so I stopped to see him, since the hospital is about 5 minutes from the studio. He was sleeping when I got there, and I prayed that God would give him a few lucid moments with me. He opened his eyes and said my name, reached out to hug me, and I prayed with him.

My request, as it has been for the past 14 months, since he told me he has cancer, is that God would give Rob 15 more years of good health, as he did to King Hezzekiah in Isaiah 38. fifteen years for Rob to tell his story of Gods transformation in his life…

I tucked his covers around him as he curled into an almost fetal position, kissed the top of his head and prayed one last time. As I left, I stopped by the nurses station to thank them for caring for him. His nurse told me that they were still running some tests to try to understand what happened. They believe something neurological, so the Neurologist wants to review. They haven’t given up on understanding what happened. They’ve tested to see if his cancer spread but haven’t found any. They didn’t want to move him until they finished with some more testing.

Dear Lord, my prayer is that You will guide the doctors to uncover the root cause of Robs issue. I pray You will bring healing to his body and mind, restore him and give him a voice to share Your miracles. If that is not Your will, Lord, I pray that You would take him Home. I know he knows Jesus as his Savior and will be with You in Heaven. I am trusting You with the studio… after all, it is Yours. If it is Your that this studio thrives where it stands, I trust You will provide the means. If it is not to be, I pray You will guide me and direct me in next steps. In all of this situation, I pray that You alone would be glorified.

In Your Name I pray

Amen