Out of my control

Mark Batterson has become one of my very favorite author’s.  Since reading his book, “In a Pit with a Lion on a Snowy Day”, I was hooked on his motivation and his message – to pursue our God-given dreams, especially if they terrify us.  One of his mantra’s is to allow God the opportunity to show up in our lives in spectacular ways…  and having a close enough relationship to Him that we have faith that He will.



Over the past four months, situations have unfolded in my life to put me in a situation which I can not control at all. I am completely out of my element to offer any medical advice to those caring for Rob right now…. and even more out of my element to personally understand and help him address his addiction, if he’s given the chance through physical healing in his present circumstances. I am completely out of my element facing financial decisions with regard to our studio, should his present circumstances continue.

I asked my husband last night if he thought those following Moses, as he led the Israelites out of Egypt, ever doubted his leadership… and whether Moses himself ever doubted God’s calling, especially as they approached the Red Sea with soldiers fast on their heels. I wondered if, when Moses realized that God was literally parting the sea to make a way for them to cross, he may have thought to himself, “holy crap! Who would have ever guessed that God would answer our prayers like this!”

In my humanness, I am admittedly terrified. I am so very grateful for the relationship that I have with Jesus, though, that tells me that He will make a way for His will to be done.

I’m writing honestly, from my gut. I will tell you that I have moments of terror amidst moments of faith. I can’t see how God will provide… and yet I’m confident He will. After all, what He’s done in my life and the lives of those around me in the past fourteen months has been amazing. He has already provided so much more than I could have ever imagined…..

I will look up for there is none above you.

I look ahead believing You are able.

Jesus, I love you and am trusting You with all my heart! ❤️



Author: Journey-For-Life

I am a musician, an engineer, a mentor; my desire is to leave things better than I found them; I am a sister, daughter, wife, mother, aunt, friend. Suicide breaks my heart; Cancer breaks my heart; Human trafficking breaks my heart; Seeing people make bad life decisions breaks my heart. I am thankful for the One True and Living God who saved me from myself and, through His Son Jesus Christ, has saved from my sins; I am confidently persistent, passionately determined and boldly creative so that I may inspire others to live a life that ultimately matters.

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