Life is a journey

Birth is a beginning and death a destination

And life is a journey

From childhood to maturity

And youth to age,

From innocence to awareness

And ignorance to knowing,

From foolishness to discretion

And then, perhaps to wisdom,

From weakness to strength

Or strength to weakness,

And often back again.

From health to sickness

And back, we pray, to health again

From offense to forgiveness

From loneliness to love

From joy to gratitude

From pain to compassion

And grief to understanding

From fear to faith

From defeat to defeat to defeat

Until, looking backward or ahead

We see that victory lies not at some high place along the way

But in having made the journey, stage by stage, a sacred pilgrimage

Birth is a beginning

Death a destination

But life is a journey

From birth to death to life everlasting

Author unknown, from the prayer book of the Shiva of my friend.

Baruch, my friends, Baruch

(Blessing, my friends, blessings)



Who are you and what breaks your heart?

The answer to the question is an important one and is different for every person. Within the answer to this question lies the desires of your heart, and where you can begin to find your purpose.

Who are you and what breaks your heart?

Who are you and what breaks your heart? I first heard this question a few years ago as a challenge from our youth pastor. Along with the other adult sponsors of our youth, I searched deep within myself to answer the question.  The answer to the question is an important one and is different for every person.  Within the answer to this question lies the desires of your heart, and where you can begin to find your purpose.   It took me several days to fully craft my response.  Over the next several years, I returned to the question as well as my answer, sometimes tweaking the verbiage, but never the message.

I am a musician, an engineer, a mentor; my desire is to leave things better than I found them; I am a sister, daughter, wife, mother, aunt, friend.

Suicide breaks my heart; cancer breaks my heart; human trafficking breaks my heart; seeing people make bad life decisions breaks my heart.

I am thankful for the One True and Living God who saved me from myself and, through His Son Jesus Christ, has saved me from my sins.

I am confidently persistent, boldly creative and passionately determined that I may inspire others to live a life that ultimately matters.

I am a believer in Jesus Christ and a firm believer that God has a plan for every one of our lives.   In my young life, I struggled to find that purpose.  Once I found it, I developed a passion to help others find their purpose in life as well.

This blog is a collection of life experiences, probably some past and some present, designed to connect with you on your life journey, to help you ultimately live a life that matters.  My sincerest prayer is that through my words, you are drawn into a deeper relationship with the One who can fulfill your purpose in life.




The fly bar

I just finished reading Mark Battersons book Double Blessing.. In one chapter of this book, he talks about the concept of “letting go of the fly bar”. The fly bar is the bar used by trapeze artists, who perform daring acts of gymnastics. In an interview with a trapeze artist, who started performing in the circus at age 7, the artist shared that the hardest part of their work is the mental preparation to “let go of the fly bar”. Until they can overcome their fear of letting go, they can never achieve the stunt. Until they have enough courage to risk the fall, they can never let go to perform.

What is your fly bar? What are you afraid to let go of that is keeping you from being able to perform? What dream are you afraid to chase?

If it’s a God given dream, I challenge you today to let go of the fly bar… He’s got you.

Be blessed today, my friends.

Seeking the lost

Lord, I am Yours, willing to share my story with all who will hear it… the story of how You picked me up out of the pit of despair and out my feet on solid ground… gave me a new purpose… to let others know that what You did for me You will also do for them!

Show me Your lost people and give me a place and opportunity to tell my story, that it would bring them to place of saving faith in our Lord and Savior, Jesus Christ.

Bring to my mind those who need to know You.. that I might intentionally pray for them and make opportunities for them.

Let me speak to Your people.

Let them see You through me.

Let them seek You with all of their heart, for them they will find You!




The cause and effects of the fall of Jerusalem…

How fitting that my daily Bible study, from the Ap Mission 119, began the book of Lamentations, which is written about the fall of Jerusalem after they’ve turned away from God. God allows cause and effect to occur in history because His people have turned away from Him.

Oh the similarities i see compared to the US of A at present. I believe this Bible study was recorded somewhere around 2010, long before our current president and the pandemic we face, along with the political cesspool that has polluted our nation.

Has God removed His favor? Would it be any wonder?

Though God may remove His favor from our nation, the Bible is clear that He will save His people for eternity. Eternity. That is far longer than the past year we’ve endured. Memes on social media provide some comic relief to the stress we are all facing, and highlight (or lowlight) the year 2020. The reality, however, is that eternity is a mighty long time. We will spend eternity either with the King or in the pit of Hell.

The time is short to get your life and your heart right with God. It is time to turn your focus to Him and not to the things of this world. Sure, we live in the world, but only so that we make disciples for Him.

He will not turn away from His people, the people who love Him and serve Him. The Bible says all you must do is believe in Him… accept the sacrifice He made for you for the forgiveness of your sins… ask Him to come into your heart. Today and reign as King Supreme over your life!

He is waiting for you… the Bible says He tarries not because he is slow but because He wants to give as many people as possible an opportunity to be saved. (2 Peter 3:9). What must you do to be saved? Ask Him to reign in your heart.

16 For God so loved the world, that he gave his only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in him should not perish, but have everlasting life. (John 3:16)

In all ways, acknowledge Him and He will make straight your paths. (Proverbs 3:5)

I am praying for you, today, my friends. Some of you may not know Gods saving grace. Some of you may not yet know His power and His love. I pray that you keep searching… for when you seek Him with all of your heart, you will find Him. Oh the assurance I have, knowing that this world is not my home… my home is to spend eternity with the King of Kings in the place He has prepared for me. Let that be your place as well, my friends.

Be blessed,


Gods math: Five plus two…. equals 5000 remainder 12

5+2= 5000 remainder 12

Mark Batterson is one of my favorite authors… I’ve read nearly every book he’s written… I am currently ready his book Double Blessing… and have certainly been doubly blessed by it. In this book, he talks of being blessed by God so that we can bless others… which is the double blessing.

The Biblical account of the loaves and fishes miracles tells how Jesus was preaching and a crowd had gathered to listen. They were getting hungry so Jesus asked if there was any food. A small boy had five small fish and two small loaves of bread, barely enough to feed the boy let alone the crowd. Yes they asked this little boy for his lunch… and yet he gave up his lunch, not knowing what was going to happen. He gave his lunch willingly, and Jesus multiplied its blessing… not only did it feed the crowd, but the leftovers filled 12 baskets! That was more than the five fish and two loaves would have had in the first place!

Only Gods math could work this way!

Those who haven’t seen Gods miracles have a limited perspective… as Jesus’ disciples did when Jesus asked if anyone had any food to feed the crown that had gathered. They could hardly conceive of feeding the crowd, let alone having leftovers!

Yet when God blesses something, He makes way where we, with limited vision, never thought possible.

Can you identify miracles in your life that could only have happened by God’s blessing? I sure can! Take some time today to think about miracles, both small and big, that you’ve seen in your life. If you think you haven’t seen any, try changing your perspective. If you find it difficult to change your perspective, ask God to reveal His miracles in your life to you… and let that be the first one!

Be blessed today, my friends!



Change changes, nothing but changes. Changes abound and changes confound. Change causes anxiety and change exhilarates…

Sometimes change is welcome… sometimes sneaks up on us unsuspecting like a thug… sometimes we seek change and sometimes we run from change.

2020 has been such an odd year if I welcomed and uncontrolled change… and it’s changed all of us somehow.

As we close a bad year and being a new, I consider some of these changes, and I am concerned that if we do nothing, we are changed forever.

Whether we agree or not, we are experiencing a cultural change brought on by the corona virus. This “social distancing”, which we implemented as a means of saving people physically, has, in my opinion, has had a tremendous negative impact to our overall mental health.

In the very beginning of this pandemic, I expressed my concern that the restrictions being imposed will have a far greater impact to our society than the virus itself. It’s not that I don’t have a healthy respect for the virus and the people who have struggled with it, but I believe we have turned ourselves upside down. We are withdrawing from one another, more concerned about whether the stranger we passed not wearing a mask might be contagious than to smile at them and brighten their day…

Political opinions and virus opinions have literally split families and friends. Social media is a literal hotbed of social bullying, showing the ugly side of humanity.

Perhaps we have to work extra hard to show care… perhaps that change needs to start from me… from you… toward others who are seeing this withdrawn society

People don’t look each other in the eye anymore… and neighbors are turning each other in for “violating the rules”

My hope in our society diminishes, but I am reminded that my hope is built on nothing less that. Jesus blood and righteousness!

My prayer is for hearts to be changed to seek Him who creates real change… hearts changed for eternity. My prayer is that our nation will return to God…

We need to be the change we hope to see. It’s time fir us to stand and direct the change we need. He is rising up warriors… change agents… are you one of them? Are you prepared?

In Him


Today’s Psalm 010621

Oh Lord my God…

When I in awesome wonder

Consider all thy hands have made….

I see the stars. I hear the rolling thunder,

Thy power throughout the universe displayed…

Lord, You are my God… and I am Your child. everything I have has been given to you by Your hand… everything I have done is by Your grace. I’ve seen Your power through miracles unfolded right before very eyes. You’ve forgiven me from unspeakable sin and found favor with me… as undeserving as I am. You’ve brought healing where it was believed impossible… provided paths through red seas of my life… You alone are worthy of my praise. I humbly lay myself down and ask You to use me.

Forgive me when I fail, and help me to seek Your righteousness… let Your light shine through me for others to swe

Guide and direct my steps and decisions, that I might be used to bring the Good news to others.

Protect me from evil, and from the wicked schemes of man, that your sovereign will prevails. Let us reach as many people as we can for Your glory and kingdom before Your wrath is poured out.

Prepare hearts to receive your salvation, and give me words and opportunity to share Your message.

You are preparing me. I feel it in my soul. Let me be obedient to Your calling. Reveal Your full calling and give me courage to follow wherever You are leading.

Truly Yours…



For the past two years, I have challenged myself to pick a word of the year to help focus my relationship with God. In 2019, I chose WAIT… as in “wait for the Lord”… ironically, that was a banner year for tremendous answers to long term prayers for me… along with tremendous spiritual growth and dependence on God.

In 2020, my word was PRAY, which turned out to be extremely important, and in some circumstances of 2020, was literally the only thing I COUlD do! My prayer life was literally transformed as I learned to spend hours in intentional prayer as well as plain and simple talks with Jesus throughout my whole day.

The word I choose for 2021 is PREPARE. I do believe God is cultivating warriors for His kingdom and we need to be prepared. I don’t yet fully know how to prepare, nor do I fully understand the mission for which I am preparing. I only know that God has a plan and a purpose for my life… and that His ultimate purpose is that we go and make disciples for Him. I am preparing to do that.

Below are a few phrases I thought of when the word prepare came to my mind… over the next few weeks I plan to explore those and others as I prepare for whatever God has planned.

Let every heart Prepare Him room

Prepare for battle

Prepare for visitors

Prepare for take-off

Prepare for landing

Lord, prepare me to be a sanctuary

I can think of no better way to begin preparing than spending time in His word. For the past 62 weeks, I have been using an ap on my phone to do a study of the Bible through Pastor John Stoper of the Christian Missionary Alliance church. It is called Mission 119. I spend time reading scripture each morning through a guided tour of the Bible, and then listen to a 10-15 minute sermonette by pastor Stoper. I have learned an incredible amount over the past year, particularly in the Old Testament, which I now find fascinating. It is an awesome way to start my day, focused on exactly the right thing…. my Lord and Savior.

My wish for all of you is that you would also begin preparing yourselves for whatever God has planned for you.

May you be blessed today, my friends.

Happy New Year!


My grace

Paul, a servant of the Lord…

Paraphrasing…. In 2 Corinthians, Paul, arguably one of the most dedicated servants for the Lord writes about the thorn in his flesh…, “I’ve prayed three times that you’d remove the thorn from my side… You haven’t… Instead You say “my Grace is sufficient for you””.

What is sufficient? What is grace, that it would be sufficient to bear the thorn in Paul’s side?

Do you have a thorn that the lord hasn’t removed? Is His grace sufficient for you to keep going and doing what you believe He’s called you to do?

Will you trust Him no matter what? Paul did.

Be blessed today, my friends.


The Crooked Perspective

“There are two equal and opposite errors into which our race can fall about the devils. One is to disbelieve in their existence. The other is to believe, and to feel an excessive and unhealthy interest in them.”   C.S. Lewis

Throughout my life, I’ve had wonderful opportunities to develop my own thinking and sharpen my skills to defend my beliefs.  Some of these occurred in classroom setting in various honors English, History and Science classes.  Others occurred more naturally between friends and intellectuals with whom I’ve had the pleasure to interact.  I’m not certain everyone gets (or takes) this opportunity in life, which sometimes leads to people simply following blind religion, or not having any beliefs at all.   In my humble opinion, this is dangerous, and perhaps one reason why the Bible refers to humanity as “sheep” (which truly are not very intelligent creatures who simply follow their shepherd).  I much rather believe it important to understand not only what you believe, but why you believe it. By that same token, I respect the fact that intellectuals can search their own beliefs and arrive at difference conclusions yet still respect one another. 

To that end, I also believe that those who are still searching and not quite sure what to believe about God and/or the Bible should continue to wrestle with it, to study, and to challenge their thoughts about it. Through critical thinking, God will bring about His truth for your life.

CS Lewis has long been one of my favorite authors.  As a child, I was mesmerized by The Lion, The Witch and The Wardrobe, and fell in love with the magical kingdom of Narnia.  As I grew older, I realized that his writing is much, much deeper, and, in fact, contains much symbolism.  Heralded as one of the foremost apologetic’s of our century, the writings of C. S. Lewis make me search deep in my own mind to understand why I believe what I believe.

In my tenth grade honors English class, I sat in front of Sergio. He had a full black beard and crazy hair and resembled Wolfman Jack. He was kind of a “wierd” loner and most students thought he was rather creepy. My friend, Bruce, sat beside me – Bruce would remind you of Hermie, the meek and mild dentist from Rudolph The Rednosed Reindeer. (Sergio earned a degree in Physics from Pitt and Bruce went on to Princeton University where he earned degrees in Mechanical and Aerospace Engineering, so both were rather intelligent). One day our class engaged in discussion of whether or not life existed after death, and whether Heaven and Hell were real places. As the students passionately debated the existence of Heaven and Hell and/or whether or not everyone automatically went to Heaven, Sergio piped up and said matter-of-factly, “If there is no hell and we all go to heaven no matter what, then I’m going to out and start hacking people up because there will be no consequences for my actions.” This was long before schools and other public places became war zones for mass attacks. The whole room fell silent and Bruce and I exchanged glances as if to say, “why do we have to be the ones sitting closest to him?”

Although the way he made his point was frightening to those around, his point was actually valid… if there are no eternal consequences for our actions on earth, why have any law at all?

Although everyone shuddered at his ghoulish statement, his point was actually a valid one.   If, in fact, there are no negative consequences of our actions, either in this life or the next, anarchy would reign supreme.

There are some wonderful Christians who believe a loving Creator could never send His beings to hell. While this is certainly a pretty picture, my opinion is that it’s not consistent with scripture. If you believe the Bible is the inerrant word of God (which I do), it is impossible to subscribe to some verses and dismiss others.

For if God did not spare angels when they sinned, but sent them to hell, putting them in chains of darkness to be held for judgment; 5 if he did not spare the ancient world when he brought the flood on its ungodly people, but protected Noah, a preacher of righteousness, and seven others; 6 if he condemned the cities of Sodom and Gomorrah by burning them to ashes, and made them an example of what is going to happen to the ungodly; 7 and if he rescued Lot, a righteous man, who was distressed by the depraved conduct of the lawless 8 (for that righteous man, living among them day after day, was tormented in his righteous soul by the lawless deeds he saw and heard)— 9 if this is so, then the Lord knows how to rescue the godly from trials and to hold the unrighteous for punishment on the day of judgment. 10 This is especially true of those who follow the corrupt desire of the flesh and despise authority.

2 Peter 2:4-10a | NIV

5 But I will show you whom you should fear: Fear him who, after your body has been killed, has authority to throw you into hell. Yes, I tell you, fear him.

Luke 12:5 | NIV

For me, I believe the Bible shows us that both Heaven and Hell are real.  I’d say, also, that there are plenty of other verses that, for me, indicate Hell is real. I believe too, that for me to fully understand the depravity of my sin, I need to understand Hell.

The good news is that God has created a way for us to be forgiven of our sins to spend eternity with Him. He can take the foulest of the foul and make them clean when we accept Him as our Savior and allow Him to be Lord of our Lives…. no matter how crooked our perspective is. I don’t encourage you to go out and start hacking people up, but I do believe that Gods grace is sufficient to extend to those who have done things they believe are unforgivable… with a broken and contrite heart, He can forgive you and clean up your past to live your future with Him.

Be blessed today, my friends



Sometimes God moments come in unexpected ways…. at times when you need them most.

This morning, I brushed the snow off of my car that accumulated on our white Christmas Day. The day itself brought mixed emotions for a variety of reasons, and I found myself a bit down today.

As I ran some errands, i realized there was an annoying little piece of ice stuck in my windshield wiper blade, and as luck would have it, it was just above my line of sight. At a red light, while stopped in traffic on a busy road, I put my window down and grabbed the wiper blade as it swooped over. I’ve done it many times before just to smack it off the windshield and dislodge the ice. Today, with temps around 18 degrees F, the plastic on the blade broke. I thought, “goodness, what now?” as the light turned green. I drove about a quarter of a mile and glanced to my right and saw Advanced Auto Parts… so I pulled in. I parked right in front of the window which had a sign that read “we sell and install wipers”. Perfect.

I parked the car and went inside. There was a man at the counter in front of me, and mid sale, he left the register to get something else. “Can I help you?” A female voice asked from the next register over. Immediately I recognized the voice, and the eyes beyond her mask.

“Jenny!?” I said, behind my mask. A bit surprised, I pulled my mask down so she could see my face as I said my name. A huge grin came over her face as she stepped out from behind the counter and gave me a big old bear hug. Tears welled up in my eyes. I hadn’t seen Jenny for years. She came briefly to the church I attended, while trying to get her life back together.

She quickly introduced me to her coworker, who gave me the store discount on a new wiper and installed it for me while Jenny and I exchanged pleasantries.

Jenny and I grew up in the same neighborhood and hung out together as early teens. She came from a rather large but somewhat dysfunctional family and got herself into drugs and alcohol at a young age.

“How are you??” I asked, knowing that the last time I had seen her she wasn’t doing great. “Eighteen years sober!” She said, confidently. “And I never miss a meeting.. (referring to AA). My mom asked me why I still go to them and I tell her I love them. I see people there who are skittish, just like I was when I first went…. and they need me… they need to know they can do it. It was AA meetings and God that got me sober.”

Tears flowed freely as I told her how proud I was of her. We talked a bit more about where she was living and our families, etc before we said goodbye. I was always fond of Jenny.

On my way out, she came to the door to tell me to tell our Pastor she said Hello.

I will indeed.

Good is good. All the time.

Be blessed,

Thank you, Lord, for showing me a ray of sunshine in a gloomy day. There IS hope for tomorrow.