Emotional equilibrium

On Sunday, our pastor preached on the upcoming battle… a spiritual battle. He mentioned the battles that the devil send our way but he also mentioned that God allows someone battles in our lives in order to strengthen us.

Monday morning started like any other day … with my devotional time. During my prayer time, I felt deeply convicted to spend the day in prayer… truly in prayer… and so I messaged my boss and told him I needed to take the morning off. I grabbed a cup of coffee and my Bible and a journal and headed to my new favorite “office” in my back deck… and literally spent hours in prayer.

Oh the topics I covered… from family and friends who don’t yet know Jesus as their savior to the coronavirus and the fear sweeping our nation to the allegations of pedophilia among the elite in our country to my own hopes and fears… for hours literally on my knees in conversation with my Maker.

I felt strangely at peace yet knew He had called me specifically to pray this day.

When it was time, I headed to my studio to teach piano lessons for the evening and came home very late at night. I was unaware that the storm had already begun brewing.

I cannot share the details but will tell you that over the next three days, one calamity after another occurred in my small circle, both directly and indirectly affecting me.

I know That I belong to God and I know that He is stronger than anything I face. The battles He’s already brought me through are my reassurance that He will do it again. I have no doubt.

I read Psalm 91 on Wednesday as I reached out to my prayer warrior friends in my inner circle to ask them to pray. I know God is faithful… but dang, the battle is tough sometimes.

This morning I read the phrase “emotional equilibrium” in a post that a dear friend posted on her Facebook page. The post is a reminder from a pastor of the passage in John 10:10 which says

10 A thief comes only to rob, kill, and destroy. I came so everyone would have life, and have it fully.

John 10:10 | CEV

And the reminder from the pastor was that Satans whole purpose is to rob us of joy… to take from us our peace and cause us to fear and destroy one another. but Jesus came that we might have life abundant and free of worry. The authors last sentiment was that he could see nothing better for our emotional equilibrium than to rejoice and praise Jesus like Paul and Silas did in prison.

My emotional equilibrium has been knocked off kilter. Truly. And I know that’s exactly what Satan wants. I refuse to allow him to win.

In order to balance my emotional equilibrium, I went to bed early last night, after praying and giving all of my praises and concerns to the One who created me. I rest in His power, waiting with the knowledge of his power to see how He resolved the situations before me.

I can say with confidence that He will come through, though I truly don’t know what His plan will bring.

I believe with my whole heart that God is preparing His people for battle. I know that preparation involves trials that will potentially upset my emotional equilibrium from time to time but I am resting in His promise

I am continually reminded of the time, about a year ago, that God so clearly asked me, “are you still going to trust me when it gets really bad?”

I don’t know what “really bad” means, Lord, but yes, I trust you always!

In His arms I rest, be blessed today my friends!


Author: Journey-For-Life

I am a musician, an engineer, a mentor; my desire is to leave things better than I found them; I am a sister, daughter, wife, mother, aunt, friend. Suicide breaks my heart; Cancer breaks my heart; Human trafficking breaks my heart; Seeing people make bad life decisions breaks my heart. I am thankful for the One True and Living God who saved me from myself and, through His Son Jesus Christ, has saved from my sins; I am confidently persistent, passionately determined and boldly creative so that I may inspire others to live a life that ultimately matters.

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