To the readers who have been following my journey, you know that my friend, Rob, has gone through some incredible health drama lately, which have driven me completely to my knees in intercession prayer. As I’ve selected “pray” as my word of the year, I suppose it’s been appropriate.
I have called on others close to me to uplift me in prayer (as well as Rob), and am exceedingly grateful for their prayers. This morning, I had a brief exchange with one of those special people. He texted me Ephesians 6:18 and told me that I’ve certainly been persistent in praying for Rob.
“Sometimes I don’t understand why I care so much about him,” I replied.
“God put a burden on your heart to intercede for him.”
After long thought, I replied, “sometimes I wish He hadn’t.”
Truly, there are times when I’m exhausted and worn out, literally heartsick from wanting to see change happen in my timeline, and frustrated when it seems Rob doesn’t understand the sacrifices that people are making for him. I have seen God’s hand clearly provide, and I know He has a plan… but there are honestly times when, if I’m honest about it, I wonder if all of this effort will be lost because Rob has the free will to choose whatever he wants (and he could choose to rebel against God). I literally want to shake him… and I know that during this waiting, God continues to prepare both Rob and me (and everyone else involved) for something He’s got planned.
Bob’s response was, “I wish He hadn’t written in His word that we are to pray for our leaders, because there’s been some of them that I don’t want to. But He did.”
Touché. I get it. I’ve been burdened by the Lord to care for him, like it or not. Until God shows me otherwise, I will continue to interceded on his behalf.
Be blessed, Rob. You must be special for God to care about you so much.