In the Garden…

After an incredibly difficult month – quite honestly, one of the most difficult of my entire life – I had a “therapy” session with my mom….

and just a quick aside – there may be some people who get frustrated with their moms, can I just say that, as a mom and a daughter, there is no stronger human love than the bond of a mother..

My mother has displayed incredible strength in her life.  She has faced some ridiculously difficult situations, from losing my brother in a fire when he was three to losing my dad to cancer when I was eight. Though she’d been battered, she never once faltered (at least outwardly).

Last Saturday night, in the middle of a crisis moment, she came a long side me and shared with me some of her darkest moments, after losing my brother and dad, where she just bowed before God and sat in silence while she visualized herself walking in a garden with Jesus, and talking through all of her hurts and pains, and He simply stayed with her, allowing her to pour her heart out to Him.

Mom said she didn’t know how long she sat in that “therapy” session with Jesus, but she was able to release ALL of her hurts to Him, and He brought her peace.

Years later, she and I took a trip to Paris and visited Pere Lachaise cemetery in Paris.  I fell in love with it.  I know it sounds strange, but it was such a peaceful place!  Anyone I know traveling to Paris, I always recommend they go there.   She didn’t tell me at the time, but last Saturday she shared that when she saw the garden paths in the cemetery, she recognized it as the place she visualized walking with Jesus as He healed her hurts!

Today, I am doing that.  I am sitting in the lobby of the studio I moved into in June – the studio that my business partner says brings him peace.   I am going on a journey into the deepest, darkest, recesses of my mind and soul, asking Jesus to come along with me, and sharing all of my life’s hurts and brokenness with him today, starting with the very earliest memories of the pain of losing my daddy.

 

I’ll let you know how it goes.

Be blessed today, my friends,

SB

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Author: Journey-For-Life

I am a musician, an engineer, a mentor; my desire is to leave things better than I found them; I am a sister, daughter, wife, mother, aunt, friend. Suicide breaks my heart; Cancer breaks my heart; Human trafficking breaks my heart; Seeing people make bad life decisions breaks my heart. I am thankful for the One True and Living God who saved me from myself and, through His Son Jesus Christ, has saved from my sins; I am confidently persistent, passionately determined and boldly creative so that I may inspire others to live a life that ultimately matters.

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