Living in full surrender of the one true King… what does that even mean?
Many years ago, in a previous role within my company, I was a member on a team performing a process audit of one of our suppliers. During the close-out meeting, our lead auditor summarized the visit by saying, “There are islands of excellence in a sea of mediocrity” I would summarize my life by saying, “There are moments of clarity among a sea of confusion”. Some of those moments last days, others months or even years, in different aspects of my life.
I can point to specific moments in my life where I felt like I was 100% on-fire to tell everyone I knew what Jesus had done in my life, feeling certain that He called me to take specific initiatives, step out in faith, and trust Him to guide me even though I can’t see where we’re going. I’ve alluded to this in previous posts – that I’m waiting for a miracle, confident that God will be faithful.
There are times I can feel the miracle swelling like a pregnant deer about to give birth. Other times I feel it slipping through my hands like grains of sand… and then God sends a sign.
Doors open and close in my year of wait.
I pulled my Bible out the other day, searching for some answers. I opened to Deuteronomy 29:4 “But to this day the Lord has not given you a mind that understands or eyes that see or ears that hear.” I posted it on Facebook to see what other people thought it meant… I was cautioned not to take it out of context, but in all honesty, I felt a certain peace about it… almost as if God was saying to me, “do you trust me?” as if it’s a question He needs me to answer before He’ll show me more.
Do I trust what He’s doing in my life? Do I trust the trials He’s brought me through? Am I confident that He’ll bring me through others? Although there is a part of me that is dying to understand, at the present moment in time, I am resting in the peace that I know He is my Savior, and has created me for a purpose, and, as far as I can tell, I’m still being prepared to fulfill that purpose in a mighty way despite some left turns in my life.
I can see the lamp unto my feet, and I see changes on the horizon, some good, some I’m not sure about, but in all of it, I am trusting Him.
Is that what full surrender is all about? If so, I’m all in.
Yes, Lord, I trust you – with the little things and with the big things, and I will keep putting one foot in front of the other doing my best to find the path or pasture you have for me.
Check out this song that fits my state of mind today…
Send me a sign
A hint, o whisper
Fill me with life
‘Cause I am listening
Come break the quiet
Breathe your awakening
Bring me the light
‘Cause I am fading
Surround me with the rush of angels’ wings
Shine Your light so I can see You
Pull me up, I need to be near You
Hold me, I need to feel loved
Can You overcome this heart that’s overcome?
You sent a sign
The hint, o whisper
Everyone is listening
Death laid low
Quiet in the night is stirring
All around the rush of angels
O the wonder of the greatest love has come
Shine Your light so all can see it
Lifted up, ’cause the whole world needs it
Love has come, what joy to hear it
He has overcome, He has overcome
Songwriters: DAVID CROWDER,JACK PARKER
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